An Ode to the Sun

I wrote this Ode about 2 years ago and I was wondering as to why was I required to do so. But let me tell you that this Ode reminds me of ME!!!!

Read on and find out more.

An Ode to the Sun – By Sharon Rodrigues

You shine so brightly during the day that brings cheer along the way.
When I’m down and feeling troubled,
I look to you for peace and comfort.
Thank you for shining so bright.
For without you we’ll always see night.
Keep going, keep going dear Sun, and be as bright as you are as you’re my morning Sun.

Malacca Trip ^_^

On the 30 October to the 1 November 2009, 6 of BKC members made a trip up to Malacca to recee for our church camp which would be held next year from 10 June to 13 June 2010. You must be thinking “That’s early for a recee!” But really it’s not. It’s so timely because when we got there, we were able to make some requests for our rooms and ballroom and children rooms. See all in God's timing.

You must be wondering who I went with right? I went up with Perlyn, Gloria and Kah Weng on the 30 October and we reached Malacca at about 5pm. The story we could tell about the Touch and Go card which we had to buy to allow us easier access at toll. But were we wrong ^_^. After that we checked in and went to eat Satay Chelop! Yummy!!!! Here is a picture of us at the stall.

After that we headed to Megamall to shop. We did not shop for a long time. Just 45mins or so as we were there pretty late. After that we decided to stop for a drink. Guess what happened after that? It started to rain. It was raining cats and dogs. Really…. No joke. But we thank the Lord that Kah Weng managed to buy 2 umbrellas. After that he went to get the car. But it’s a wonder how we managed to get back to the hotel at about close to 11pm. After that Pearlyn and I chatted a little before we headed to bed.

Next morning was a ‘working’ day for us. In the morning we had breakfast and met up with Margery the Business Development Manager who is our point of contact. We managed to see the whole place and do some selection of the ballroom and the room for the children activity. We thank the Lord that we managed to get there and do this selection. Just have to wait and pray for them to give us the rooms that we want.

After that Uncle Paul and Aunty Lileng came to check into the hotel and we headed out for lunch. We went to Bei Zhan for lunch. A place recommended by Uncle Robert. Below is a picture of Uncle Paul and Aunty Lileng and Kah Weng with the food hee hee ^_^

After dinner, we were introduced to this place called Amy's Heritage. Amy is the chef there. After dinner we wanted to thank her for the lovely food and she actually obliged. Here is a photo of her with the ladies and our dear sister Perlyn serving us rice.

After that we went for chendol at Jonker Street. Was a good time for me to look around and see what I could do for the games for camp. What is it? When you go for camp you will know. Exciting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

On our last day, we had time to eat Chicken Rice Balls. See a picture of us and our favourite past time. Eating!!! The joy of it.

All in all we had an enjoyable trip, shopping, eating, shopping and more eating. Company was really great too. I thank the Lord for this experience and many opportunities that I could enjoy. Amen!

The Love of Christ!

Have you ever wondered what the definition of love is? Today, I had a interesting thought and was wondering what it was. More so that I want to write about Agape love. So what is Agape Love?

Agape love is self-sacrificial. It is a unique love and can be seen from your nature and character. This unique love is from God and of God. As I was doing my Emmaus Study, I came across this attribute about God. It states that God is love. It is God's nature to love. As it is stated in 1 John 4: 8, "Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love." Although God hates sin, He loves sinners as in Romans 5:8 "But God demonstrates His own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us." God gave up His own beloved Son to die on the cross for me. What more can I ask for?

So now when I think of what love is, I am reminded of John 3:16 "For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life." If the Lord can love a sinner, what more me that I have now become His child and I can call Him Abba Father. Amen!

The picture below is a nearby hillock, with a Moslem's cemetery on top and a broken cistern in its rocky face, bears the resemblance to a skull, which could be Golgotha. Every time I go through my pictures of my trip of Israel, I am reminded of this place where Jesus was crucified. Mark 15:22 "They brought Jesus to the place called Golgotha (which means The Place of the Skull)."

Lord I pray that I be more and more like you and love with out ceasing. Amen!

Emmaus Correspondence Study - What the Bible Teaches (2)

There is after all some colours in my life! This is the same picture of the previous one in black and white. Nice right?

After reading every chapter, there is an exam that I will have to take to test my understanding of the chapter and understanding of the Almighty Lord and Master of my life. God!

The first chapter, I was asked this question. "What do you think about the Bible?" This was my response. "The Bible is God's breath, It is God's teaching to me. It is a Holy book which I find comfort, peace and instructions from. It also is a book of encouragement for me and I can find God's instruction of obedience for me in the Bible."

When I finished the second chapter, this was the question at the end of it "What are your thoughts toward God?"My response to this is very simple. "God loves me even though I am a sinner. He is a loving, just, holy and unchangeable God. he is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. He is everywhere and knows everything. He is God the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit."

These 2 questions really brought me to see the Lord as a loving, just and fair God who loves me even though I am a sinner and I should sin less from now onwards. I should be an imitator of the Lord and He is sinless but I know that I cannot meet up to Him and be a Lamb without blemish. I should try to be sin less from now onwards.

Read on to find out more of what I have learnt from this study. There are many books to do so I am taking it as it comes. Lord grant me the peace and patience and the love to know You more. Amen!

Emmaus Correspondence Study - What the Bible Teaches

This picture which I took reminded me that life can be black or white or colourful and it is up to me to make a choice how I want to live my life.

Because of an encouragement from Aunty Molly, I decided to do the Emmaus Correspondence Study. I'm starting the study with the foundation study of What the Bible Teaches.

On page 14 of What the Bible Teaches, this caught my attention. It states that "The Bible teaches us that man is a three-fold being - body, soul and spirit (1 Thessalonians 5:23 - "May God himself, the God of peace, sanctify you through and through. May your whole spirit, soul and body be kept blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ."). It is hard for us to know the difference between soul and spirit because we cannot see them as we can see the body, but the Bible shows us that there is a difference. Animals have a body and a soul, but they have no spirit. A man has a body, a soul and a spirit.

The soul is what makes the difference between a living being and a dead one, but the spirit is what makes the difference between a man and an animal. Because we have a spirit, we can have a close relationship with God. Our feelings and desires come from the soul. Our ability to know and think comes from the spirit. Because we have a spirit, we are responsible to God. Our greatest duty is to find what God wants us to do and then do it.

It is indeed very profound but very true. I need to find what God wants me to do and then do it!!!

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Dear Lord and Heavenly Father,

I pray that You open my heart and mind to understand and have the wisdom and knowledge of what You want me to do so that I can do it. Lord You know the challenges that I have at work, I pray that as I lay them at Your feet You will grant me the wisdom and faith to know that You are in control of everything.

I pray all this in the name of my Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. Amen.

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My new place!

Finally I have gotten my own place! I waited exactly 1 year for my own flat and I want to thank the Lord for granting me my place.

Waiting on the Lord for my own place was really not easy. Before I bought this place, I prayed that the Lord will grant me a place at the right time, at the right price and at the right place and all this I prayed for in His Time!

When I sold my old place a 5 room flat, I was frantically looking for a place to buy and own. But whatever I did, the Lord closed all the doors and in the end, I had to rent a room from my downstairs neighbour. I rented that room for exactly 1 year. Than in June, I found a place and after doing all the paper works, I got my keys in August 2009 and on 11 September 2009 after 1 month of renovation, I moved into my own place.

Having my own place feels really good and when I say “I’m going home.” I really mean what I say and I rest well at night!

I’m still unpacking now as it’s only been like 1 week plus since I moved in and on Monday afternoon, when I was taking a nap, I dreamt that my mum was around to help me unpack. Dreaming of her like this did not make my unpacking any better. I miss my mum even more. This is what I want to say to my mum “Mummy I love you and I know that the Lord is looking after me. I miss you very much and I know I will see you one day in Heaven!”

Here are a few pictures of my place. I have taken a picture of my living room (the cleaner and nicer looking side of course), my own bedroom and the better side of my kitchen. Nice right!!!!!!

The above pictures are of my own bedroom and the other spare room. See told you that I had boxes in the rooms that are still unpacked.

Above are pictures of my living room and my kitchen. Still in the midst of unpacking :(

Hari Raya Puasa

On 20 September 2009 was Hari Raya Puasa. Every year on this day, I would go and visit my Aunty Rose and Uncle Reg. Uncle Reg is my father’s brother who converted to Muslim. They have 3 children. 2 boys and a girl. Altogether, my uncle has 4 grand-children. Here are some pictures of my uncle’s children and grandchildren. It’s not all of them but like I always say, “Better than none.”

The picture below is of Uncle Reg with Danny's and Nor's kids. The girl Diana is my cousin's Danny's daughter. The baby belongs to my other cousin Nor. And that not so young gentleman is my Uncle Reg.

This picture below is of my cousin Danny and Nor's son.

I really thank the Lord for relatives and friends in my life. Especially now when mum is not with me, the more I cherish my family.

Unicell Gathering

On 21 September 2009, some of the Unicellers met up at Karin and Yeen Chin’s place as Aunty Molly and Uncle Richard were in Singapore.

It has been almost 10 years since I came back to Singapore for good from Brisbane. I miss those days where I would spend my afternoons either on Campus at Kelvin Grove QUT Campus, at Aunty Molly’s place, doing bible study or watching movies at Indoorpilly Shopping Centre. Those were indeed my carefree days where I am stress free from work and from many other worries. Here are some pictures of the campus that I went to about 10 years ago. It still looks the same. Hee hee ^_^

Looking at my friends and their families, it reminded me that I was getting on in age. Many of them are married with children. There are a few of us who are still single and Aunty Molly and Uncle Richard have been praying for us everyday that we would be able to find a husband or wife so that we can “Go forth and multiply” as Aunty Molly would always remind us single ones.

This gathering was a great reminder that the Lord has brought many people into my life and I have only Him to be very thankful for. As the years goes by, I have made many friends and some happen to be friendlier than others. Most of my friends in this group are from the younger batches of Unicellers. The older Unicellers from my batch only a handful came. Alvin with wife and Chloe from Singapore and Liean who actually came to stay with me for one night. She is from KL. It was good to be able to catch up with her and also with Aunty Molly and Uncle Richard.

Thank you Lord for providing Aunty Molly and Uncle Richard with Your strength and wisdom from the Holy Spirit. Amen!

Here are some pictures of us trying to take a group picture. I took this part by part when I got the chance. Aunty Molly mentioned that we are all her children and the kids are all her grandchildren. Over the years, Aunty and Uncle has many many many children and grandchildren who have come and gone and some even stayed on in Brisbane Unicell.

Writing a Book!

It has been more than 4 years since my mum passed away, for a long time now it has been pressing in my heart to write a book about my mother's illness and I am still praying about it.

A book? ME! You must be joking right? You bet. These words have gone through my mind for a long time now and I don't know what I need to do so I have been praying about it.

If you are reading this blog, I ask for your support to pray together with me for the Lord to show me the direction as to whether the thought of writing this book is from the Lord and what does He want me to do about it?

The other night, the thought of writing it came to my mind again and this time, I asked the Lord that should He want me to write this book, I pray that others who would want to share their stories about being ill and to share it with others especially non-believers so that their stories would be a testimony to the them and they would in return be touched and look to the Lord for His strength and grace.

Another Cross Road in my life

Today is another cross road in my life. I got to realise that I'll be getting my new place by Friday and everything seems to be coming along like a jig-saw puzzle.

I prayed that the Lord grant me a new place, at the right time and at the right price. I thank the Lord that He is omni-present and answered my prayer. This is indeed something that I have learnt in my life that if I have faith as small as a mustard seed, I can move a mountain.

Today my friends came to help me transport some stuff over to my new place. My friend BH and P mentioned that the the price for houses was now going up and the cash above valuation was very high as compared to the last few months. I really have the thank the Lord that He was looking out for me and providing me with the contractor, the place and most of all the beautiful home.

My godfather came to bless the house last week on 1 Sept and I thank him for committing the house to the Lord.

Also after that on Friday, Uncle EC called me to see if I could house 2 missionaries who will be coming on the Doulos and I said not a problem. I want to use the extra place in my house to give the Lord thanks and I pray that everyone who is coming to stay in my place will be blessed by Him and He look after us all.

Thank you Lord for everything! Amen!

Good bye Nan!

On the 14 July 2009, my grandma whom I call Nan passed away peacefully in Broome Australia. Nan was sick for more then a month and each time I thought of her I think of her telling me her favourite phrase. Like "Wherever you may be let the air go free" This she says when she lets the air go ^_^

She has another phrase which we grand-children find it hard to forget. It's "Tell the truth and shame the devil". Nan likes to use these phrases all the time. From me to my cousins in Perth, we remember her dearly by these words.

After not travelling to Australia for almost 4 years since my mum passed away, I told my dad that I wanted to go to Perth for Nan's funeral. My Uncle Reg and I left Singapore on the 18 July 2009 on a night flight to Perth. We reached Perth at about 11.30pm and did not reach Uncle Bunny's place until almost 1am. From that day onwards, time went flying.

Nan's funeral was held on 21 July 2009. It was a beautiful church service and most of the grandchildren and great-grandchildren had a part to play either during the service or at the crematorium. It was hard to say good bye but I had to let her go.

The lesson that I learnt from my trip to Perth is that in God's timing all things will be put in place and everyone of us including myself will have a time of closure. God knows the right timing to take Nan and when the jigsaw puzzle will fall into place.

Thank you Lord for the time I am able to go to Perth and thank you also for the family whom I have not met for 4 years. Amen!

Lesson to learn about action

The Lord has lessons for me to learn everyday. Even if the lesson is small, it's still a lesson to learn.

The lesson that I learnt today was to not quick to action on certain things. Wait and think about it and pray and that way, our actions will not be a rush actions without thought and much prayer.

Good lesson and I will remember it.

Going by Faith!!!

The other day on Friday morning, I was praying and I asked the Lord to give us just 1 more participant for our MY First Club Character Camp and I just prayed that by faith.

I knew that it was going to be really praying by faith because the camp was just 2 days away. On Monday, we will start our camp and for asking 1 more to come on board, it would mean that someone would have to do some extra talking.

You know sometimes just pray and let the Lord handle it. And you know what happened? We had 2 more signed up for the camp!

God is really great and I am always reminded by His answers to our prayer no matter how small a request we would have. All I had to do was go by faith!!!!

What's 1 week without God?

This was something which I got from a friend of mine. It states this...

Without GOD, our week would be: Sinday, Mournday, Tearsday, Wasteday, Thirstday, Fightday & Shatterday. If you are not ashamed of GOD, pass it on.
Remember seven days WITHOUT GOD makes one WEAK!! So Sooooooo true!

Last night things did not go to well for me. Currently I'm at the cross road of my life. Things around me are happening and going on the right path for some yet there are certain things in my life that I am feeling very frustrated over and I ask myself what have I done or not done about it that I get this kind of results. I started asking myself if I am doing the right things or not. I start to doubt myself and question myself about the things that have been happening around me.

There are people who can really make me feel that I am wrong in everything that I do and that was an experience that I had. I asked myself if I should just stay away from my friends on all other occasions and just not let them feel unhappy when I am with them. Oh boy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But that is really not me. I love my friends and I want them to win in their lives. Every time I feel frustrated, I know that I can call on some of my friends to chat and let them know how I am really feeling.... But now I doubt if I could really do that...... Is it right???? Is it wrong???? So how??? What's next for me????

Are we really too busy for a friend?

I came across this article which a friend of mine sent to me and I thought that it was very thoughtful and I wanted to share it with those of you who have not read it before. The article talks about how a teacher's small gesture for her class could make her students remember her and also what she had done for them. Here is how the article goes:

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One day a teacher asked her students to list the names of the other students in the room on two sheets of paper, leaving a space between each name. Then she told them to think of the nicest thing they could say about each of their classmates and write it down. It took the remainder of the class period to finish their assignment, and as the students left the room, each one handed in the papers.

That Saturday, the teacher wrote down the name of each student on a separate sheet of paper, and listed what everyone else had said about that individual.

On Monday she gave each student his or her list. Before long, the entire class was smiling. 'Really?' she heard whispered. 'I never knew that I meant anything to anyone!' and, 'I didn't know others liked me so much,' were most of the comments.

No one ever mentioned those papers in class again. She never knew if they discussed them after class or with their parents, but it didn't matter. The exercise had accomplished its purpose. The students were happy with themselves and one another. That group of students moved on.

Several years later, one of the students was killed in Vietnam and his teacher attended the funeral of that special student. She had never seen a serviceman in a military coffin before. He looked so handsome, so mature.

The church was packed with his friends. One by one those who loved him took a last walk by the coffin. The teacher was the last one to bless the coffin.

As she stood there, one of the soldiers who acted as pallbearer came up to her. 'Were you Mark's math teacher?' he asked. She nodded: 'yes.' Then he said: 'Mark talked about you a lot.'

After the funeral, most of Mark's former classmates went together to a luncheon. Mark's mother and father were there, obviously waiting to speak with his teacher.

'We want to show you something,' his father said, taking a wallet out of his pocket 'They found this on Mark when he was killed. We thought you might recognize it.'

Opening the billfold, he carefully removed two worn pieces of notebook paper that had obviously been taped, folded and refolded many times. The teacher knew without looking that the papers were the ones on which she had listed all the good things each of Mark's classmates had said about him.

'Thank you so much for doing that,' Mark's mother said. 'As you can see, Mark treasured it.'

All of Mark's former classmates started to gather around. Charlie smiled rather sheepishly and said, 'I still have my list. It's in the top drawer of my desk at home.'

Chuck's wife said, 'Chuck asked me to put his in our wedding album.'

'I have mine too,' Marilyn said. 'It's in my diary'

Then Vicki, another classmate, reached into her pocketbook, took out her wallet and showed her worn and frazzled list to the group. 'I carry this with me at all times,' Vicki said and without batting an eyelash, she continued: 'I think we all saved our lists'

That's when the teacher finally sat down and cried. She cried for Mark and for all his friends who would never see him again.

The density of people in society is so thick that we forget that life will end one day. And we don't know when that one day will be. So please, tell the people you love and care for, that they are special and important. Tell them, before it is too late.

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Truthfully, in our busyness, we forget to tell others around us what we think of them. This is a timely reminder for me to be able to reconnect with some friends along the way. People whom I know and are reading my blog and publications, thank you for allowing me to share my life with you. I pray that the Lord will bring you along my way again if we have not met up for a while. I will gladly want to sit with you and catch up!

Luke 6:37 - 38 - Judging Others

Judging Others

"Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven. Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you."

During the week that I have been reading Luke, I am reminded of many things. The next thing that the Lord put in my heart is not to judge others as God will do the judging for me. If they done me wrong, just accept it and move on with my life. God will do what is deem fit to the person as I am in no control of it.

This reminds me of my time in SCORE. I remember what someone once said to me. I was so upset after hearing what he said that I did not know what to do. Then I am reminded that God is the Great Judge and all I had to do was to pray and lay the situation at His feet. I did just that though my heart was very heavy.

Now looking back, I am so glad that the Lord knows what to do and when to do it. I'm glad is because I did not take any drastic measure in regards to the situation and that saved me some heartache. Though I am sad that people have to suffer, I know that God knows best and He will do what is best for them to learn and come to know Him and be His child.

Luke 6:27 - 36 - Love for enemies

Love for Enemies
"But I tell you who hear me: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you. If someone strikes you on one cheek, turn to him the other also. If someone takes your cloak, do not stop him from taking your tunic. Give to everyone who asks you, and if anyone takes what belongs to you, do not demand it back. Do to others as you would have them do to you. "If you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? Even 'sinners' love those who love them. And if you do good to those who are good to you, what credit is that to you? Even 'sinners' do that. And if you lend to those from whom you expect repayment, what credit is that to you? Even 'sinners' lend to 'sinners,' expecting to be repaid in full. But love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High, because he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked. Be merciful, just as your Father is merciful.

I'm reminded that I need to love my enemies. Given what I've been going through this week, does it really mean what I think it is? How can I do that was the first question that came to my mind. Than I'm reminded of my mum!

Mummy was a forgiving woman who loved me unconditionally and would give up her life for me if she had to. She gave me everything within her means and would even keep her marriage going even when she knew what was happening. She did it all for me and most importantly because she loves the Lord with all her heart, mind and soul!

Thank you mum for the reminder even though you are not physically with me, your love and words for me still linger on. Even when I'm writing this post, my eyes are filled with tears when I think of mum.

Forgive I will and I will move on with my mind. Love my enemies I will and move on too with my life from there! Amen!

Mark 11:22 - Have Faith in God

In Mark 11:22 it reminds me to " Have faith in God," Jesus answered.

This is such a good timely reminder to me that I need to have faith in God in whatever I do and have faith that He knows what is best for His child... Me!

On Monday, my boss told me that someone called on Sat to look for the head of our childcare admin. The person did not want to leave their name or number. Could it be a complain? After hearing that, I felt down and troubled! I have been doing what I can for the centre and the children and now I get this! I was really upset and for the better work fed-up!

When I met my boss on Tuesday, i am reminded that I should leave my worries and troubles at the feet of Christ and trust and have faith in Him. I prayed about it the next few days and I feel a sense of relieve and I feel less troubled. No not totally troubled but less.... yes I'm still a human being and I have my neediness with me too!

Lord, I pray and leave the situation in your hands and I lay them at your feet. I thank you for guiding me thus far and giving me the knowledge and strength to go through situation. I pray Lord that my faith in you grows deeper each day and I pray that you teach me to have patience and grow in love. Thank you Lord. Amen!

Pray and believe

Last night I was reminded of Mark 11:22-25. It states that "Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours. And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive him, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins."

I'm reminded that when I pray, I must believe that the Lord will give me what I pray for. I always have this thing about trusting myself and also seeing myself being very small and not able to be in a relationship with man who loves the Lord with his heart, mind and soul and also serve the Lord in the same area as me. In the children ministry.

I pray that the Lord will grant me the love of my life and that He knows when and who it is. Thank you Lord!!!

Mark 10:9 - Why this verse at this time?

Today I am reminded of this verse from the bible it's from Mark 10:9 which states "Therefore what God has joined together, let man not separate."

A good reminder to me at this point in time when I am feeling down and out about relationship. I have been wondering lately if this person is for me and when I got an answer from God, I thought it would be. However, after going through a few weeks without this person in focus, I am wondering. Wondering if really my life is going to be a single life. I wonder what God's will for my life would be as I have not gotten the answer till now. All I am reminded is to wait...

It's a reminder to me that God has indeed put man and woman together and He has fitted them the best way possible and they are to be of support and find comfort in each other. This bond that the Lord has put together is not to be taken lightly or be untied as and when you want to. God has his purpose for everything and only He knows best and He knows whom.

Therefore my reminder is this "My child, when I find the best fit for you, no matter how man tries to avoid or how any other person tries to come between, it would not happen unless I allow it to be so." Amen!!

Psalm 23 and the meaning of the verses!

This is something which I read and want to share with all of you to be encouraged. This is taken from the book entitled The Grand Weaver written by Ravi Zacharias. It was taken from page 50 and 51. Here it goes and I pray that the Lord speak to you and encourage you as it did with me. Amen.

Psalm 23
The Lord is my Shepherd – that’s relationship!

I shall not be in want – that’s supply!

He makes me lie down in green pastures – that’s rest!

He leads me beside quiet waters – that’s refreshment!

He restores my soul – that’s healing!

He guides me in the paths of righteousness – that’s guidance!

For His name’s sake – that’s purpose!

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death – that’s testing!

I will fear no evil – that’s protection!

For you are with me – that’s faithfulness!

Your rod and the staff, they comfort me – that’s discipline!

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies – that’s hope!

You anoint my head with oil – that’s consecration!

My cup overflows – that’s abundance!

Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life – that’s blessing!

And I will dwell in the house of the Lord – that’s security!

Forever – that’s eternity!
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Letting it all go!!!

It's easier said than done! That is the honest truth!!!!

But if I don't 'unplug' myself, nothing will work... so here goes!!!!!

New game starting on Wednesday... I'm all excited as I've not been back for like 1 year to the 'playing field'... loving people for who they are is something that I have always find possibilities in doing and I love it!!!!! Like I always say, it's just the mechanism.

Can't wait for Wed to come.....

The Mission - A song that reminds me about Mission and what God wants me to be doing.

Last year, this was my church Mission Song for Mission month. It was indeed a great reminder to me about where God wants me to place my heart and do His work.

My mission was not out in the world. It was close to my heart... my family, my friends and my love ones. A great reminder to me what the Lord wants me to do. Be blessed and encouraged.

Here is the lyrics to The Mission song.
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There's a call going out
Across the land in every nation
A call to those who swear allegiance to the cross of Christ
A call to true humility, to live our live responsibly
To deepen our devotion to the cross at any price

Let us then be sober, moving only in the Spirit
As aliens and strangers in a hostile foreign land
The message we're proclaiming is repentance and forgiveness
The offer of salvation to a dying race of man

Chorus:
To love the Lord our God
Is the heartbeat of our mission
The spring from which our service overflows
Across the street
Or around the world
The mission's still the same
Proclaim and live the Truth
In Jesus' name

As a candle is consumed by the passion of the flame
Spilling light unsparingly throughout a darkened room
Let us burn to know Him deeper
Then our service flaming bright
Will radiate his passions
And blaze with holy light

Chorus:
To love the Lord our God
Is the heartbeat of our mission
The spring from which our service overflows
Across the street
Or around the world
The mission's still the same
Proclaim and live the Truth
In Jesus' name
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Trust His Heart.

During the weekend, this song came into my mind and I am encouraged by it that though I don't see the Lord physically moving things in my life, I know that I can trust His Heart....

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All things work for our good
Though sometimes we don't see how they could
Struggles that break our hearts in two
Sometimes blind us to the truth

Our Father knows what best for us
His ways are not our own
So when your pathway grows dim
And you just don't see Him
Remember you're never alone

God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don't understand
When you don't see His plan
When you can't trace His hand
Trust His heart

He sees the master plan
And He holds our future in His hand
So don't live as those who have no hope
All our hope is found in Him

We see the present clearly
But He sees the first and the last
And like a tapestry He's weaving you and me
To someday be just like Him

God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don't understand
When you don't see His plan
When you can't trace His hand Trust His

He alone is faithful and true
He alone knows what is best for you

God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don't understand
When you don't see His plan
When you can't trace His hand Trust His heart
When you don't understand
When you don't see His plan
When you can't trace His hand Trust His heart

Weekend away!!!!

I am back from my weekend to KL. Caught up with a few friends and made new friends too... When I left I did not mention to many people just a few close friends that I was going to 'disappear' for a few days ^_^

What did I learn from my KL trip? Many things... Firstly, the glory of the Lord was in the nature of things that I saw on my way up to KL. The Lord was indeed wonderful in creating the hills and mountains and the trees and other things. I thank the Lord for it all.

Secondly, I thank the Lord for giving me a peace of mind and heart during this trip. I basically opened myself and let myself enjoy the trip and being with friends whom I only catch up with like once in 2 years. Just that this trip, made me and LE talk and open with to each other more.

Well, I still have yet to have a reply for my prayer with you know who... will move on with my life and if he comes, he comes.. if not I move on with my life... and if he misses the boat, too bad...

Took some pictures of LE teaching the kids in her church (Kepong Gospel Church) English tuition. She was good at it and the children listens and responds to her well.... Keep it up Babe!!!!

Lesson to learn about Flat ---3

Well, today is a better day. I went to meet the seller and we signed the option to purchase. However, there will be another time when I have to meet them and go to HDB for 1 appointment.

Though it might take a few more months when I get my flat...that I can call home.... I thank the Lord for all the lessons learnt.

There are more to come as things are not settled yet. Until the day I get the key to the house, all I can do is pray that everything will go smoothly.

Amen!!!!

Lesson to learn about Flat --- 2

Today I was suppose to go and sign an opt to purchase for the flat. However that did not pull through and at the last minute my agent called me to say that the seller had some doubts as they wanted to see the place that they were going to buy first....

I asked myself what the Lord was trying to tell me... so far... What I got was this... Be patient my child. Everything will work out for it's good for you.... Ok I'll wait is all I can say and pray that the Lord will open this door.

I was so happy to be able to exercise the opt... but after that... I felt like a ton of bricks falling on my head :(

Beautiful In My Eyes By Joshua Kadison

When I am down and wondering why the Lord has not brought a person into my life whom I can call my other half. I am reminded of this song. It's entitled Beautiful In My Eyes. This song for those of you who know it is 'my' song. It is meant for me and it represents something in my life. Though I may be what I look like on the exterior, what I am on the inside is a whole different person. For who I am, the person would love me for what is in the heart. What is on the outside if it's pleasing to the eyes, its an added bonus.

God did not make us all the same. If He did, the world would be so boring. He made us all different and He gave us all different spiritual gifts that we could use for the extension of His kingdom. I will talk more about Spiritual Gifts and what mine are in my next post.

Here is the lyrics of the song Beautiful In My Eyes...

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You're my peace of mind in this crazy world.

You're everything I've tried to find, your love is a pearl.

You're my Mona Lisa, you're my rainbow skies,

and my only prayer is that you realize you'll always be beautiful in my eyes.

The world will turn and the seasons will change,

and all the lessons we will learn will be beautiful and strange.

We'll have our fill of tears, our share of sighs.

And my only prayer is that you realize you'll always be beautiful in my eyes.

You will always be beautiful in my eyes.

And the passing years will show

that you will always grow ever more beautiful in my eyes.

When there are lines upon my face from a lifetime of smiles,

and when the time comes to embrace for one long last while,

we can laugh about how time really flies.

We won't say goodbye 'cause true love never dies.

You'll always be beautiful in my eyes.

You will always be beautiful in my eyes.

And the passing years will show that you will always grow ever more beautiful in my eyes.

The passing years will show that you will always grow ever more beautiful in my eyes.

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I take courage and will always know that I am beautiful in the eyes of My Lord and Father and that of my parents. Be blessed.

Article - Guard Your Heart by Nancy Wilson

It was so funny how I came about this particular article. I was surfing last night and looking for articles on Guard Your Heart and this article came popping up in my face. It really speaks to me and I want to share it with all of you.

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Quoting from website: www.credenda.org/issues/11-5femina.php

Volume 11, Issue 5: Femina

Guard Your Heart by Nancy Wilson

This article is directed to unmarried women, whether young and in their fathers’ households, older and on their own, or widows who would like to remarry. The principle is that you must guard your heart so that it does not become entangled emotionally without the protection of a covenant. Many of these exhortations that follow may seem a trifle negative, but believe me, the results will be positive.

When a woman leaves her heart unguarded and becomes attached to the wrong man, she exposes herself to great hurt or harm. Many women, anxious to be married, respond to the first man who comes along and even allow themselves to become physically involved when they “know better.” It is easy to have convictions as long as you are not called upon to stand up for them, especially if you must stand up to a man you have allowed yourself to fall in love with. Never assume you are “strong” and can “handle” being alone with a man that you are attracted to. Remember, whoever he is, if he is not your husband, you have no business submitting to him in any area, especially if he wants you to engage in a little physical affection when there is no fence of covenantal protection around the relationship. Virginity is a priceless inheritance you bring into marriage.

You must guard your imagination if you want to guard your heart. Don’t feed a lonely heart with cheesy romance novels or chick flicks and fantasize about the men or the relationships described. This can quickly become lust—lusting to be lusted after. Don’t allow yourself to imagine someone is interested in you when he is just being friendly. Don’t imagine that he had a tender look when he said hello to you, when he was really just giving you a polite greeting. In other words, do not develop wild crushes. If the man in question shows an interest elsewhere, you will be hurt, and depending on how much you indulged your imagination, you may be devastated. Be realistic about the men who show you attention. If you are too eager for a relationship, you can imagine he is godlier, funnier, sweeter, smarter, older, or taller than he really is. If you have to talk yourself into someone, you are not being realistic about this man. Don’t get desperate! Don’t allow yourself to get involved in an inappropriate relationship because you are lonely. Don’t look for a man as a ticket out. You may want to move out or move on, but that is not a good reason to get married.

Just because a man shows an interest is no good reason to assume he is the one for you. There is no fire. Think about it. Get input from someone who knows you. Take your time. Don’t fling yourself in his arms as soon as he shows his hand. Women are sometimes in love with being in love, longing for a relationship more than they long to please God. Marriage is not an end in itself; it is a means of glorifying God. There is one thing worse than being single: being married to the wrong man.

Cultivating male group friendships is a healthy alternative to the world’s dating system, but we must not use these friendships to fill a void. Friendships can be sexually charged, and women are usually very ignorant about this. Friendships should not be intimate, but good-naturedly distant. Would you be able to maintain the friendship on an equal footing if you were married? If not, it is probably an inappropriate friendship. Women should have the kind of friendships with the brothers that are characterized by purity and propriety. If you have to alter your behavior after you are married, you have probably been behaving in an unwise or ungodly manner. This means you should not be spending one-on-one time with men (unless it is in the context of courtship), whether you are married or single. If you are going out for coffee and allowing men to pour out their troubles to you, this behavior will have to stop if you marry someone else. That tells me you should stop now.

Beware well-meaning friends. “He’s so good looking,” they say, but you know he is also so ungodly. Don’t encourage them by talking too much about your interests. Things have a funny way of getting back to the person. And if he isn’t interested, you will just feel foolish, and you may get hurt.

Finally, when in doubt, throw it out. Do not stay in a relationship that you have doubts about. It is very unwise to marry someone hoping for changes in him. If you have concerns about his godliness, his character, his theology, his relationship to his parents, his lifestyle, or anything else, back off, and maybe you should back out. Of course you have protection in the counsel and advice of your parents, but be careful not to marry someone simply to please your parents. Surely your parents have good intentions, but you must be honest with them about your hesitations. I cannot imagine parents (if they are loving and godly) pressuring a daughter to marry someone she did not want to marry!

Do cultivate a biblical view of marriage. Do cultivate godly group friendships. Women can learn a lot about how men think from being friends with men in groups. Do cultivate a godly character in yourself because marriage amplifies all you are. Look for likemindedness in a man: do you agree doctrinally? Are you similar culturally? Is he attractive to you? Be realistic, trust God, and be content.

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There are some points that I have highlighted that really speaks to me. I thank the Lord for this as it reallys helped me to see possibilities and where I should be functioning from. Amen!!!!

Lesson to learn about the Flat

Well, I managed to call HDB and the Lord has indeed been gracious. According to HDB, as long as I am a Singaporean, I am eligible for the lift upgrading grant. Therefore I only need to pay about $500 the most of the lift upgrading... Thank you Lord for being so gracious to be.


Next, since I have an income of above a certain amount, I am not eligible for the Single grant nor a HDB loan. That means I have to get a bank loan. Oh well... expected that... So now going to call the Banker to fill in the form and apply for the loan. I pray that the Lord will open this door for me to get a loan approved by DBS.


Please continue to keep me in pray that the Lord will speak to the owners to reduce the cash above valuation amount. If not , I am prepared to pay $5k above valuation for this flat but not worth for me to do that. House very old. But if the Lord's willing, and this is the place for me, I know that He will do what is best.


Amen!!!

Flat of my choice

I just came back from viewing some flats today.... Many things to be considered and pray about.

1. Pray that the Lord will work through the hearts of the house owners in regards to the cash above valuation. We have offered $3K and we are praying that the family will accept it especially the father. The maximum we will go for the valuation is $4K to $5K

2. Pray that if this is the house that the Lord has shown me, I will make it my own and use it for the extension of His kingdom and be a blessing to others.

3. Pray that the lift upgrading project that is happening now would not be more than $8K. As this is my second buy, I am not entitled to the benefits on cost savings like the rest of the home owners. I will be calling HDB tomorrow to find out. I pray that the Lord will grant His grace upon me and allow me to have a surprise in according to His will.

4. Pray that the amount for the lift upgrading could be factored into the bank loan so that I do not have to come up cash up front for it and can keep cash for furnishing and fittings for the flat. My agent will follow up with the bank on this matter and come back to me.

5. Pray that the Lord will work through the given points above and open the door for me to own this flat so that I can call it my own home.

Lord I know that You have plans for me and that You know what is best for me in terms of this flat that I would like to own. I can only pray and ask for You if it is according to Your will that everything will work out for Your good. I pray and ask all these in Jesus name.

Friends, please pray with me as you read this posts today that if it is according to the Lord's will, I will be able to go through owning this house in no time. Thank you.

Resurrection Sunday!

Today reminded me that it's indeed Resurrection Sunday! Have you ever thought what it would be like to live Good Friday or the Saturday over and over again? I don't think I could and I don't want to. Reasons are very simple. I don't want to go through the sadness that Jesus has died on the cross. I also don't want to go through if I were His disciple during that time that my Lord and Master is no more.

I want to live for Resurrection Sunday or what others would call Easter Sunday!!! As in Matthew 28:6 it is written "He is not here; He has Risen" Yes the Lord is risen indeed!!!! I believe that He died for me and rose again so that I would believe. Though I do not see yet I believe. Amen!

I share with you some pictures that I took while I was at the Garden Tomb in Israel. This is the picture that shows the entrance of the tomb. The picture beside it is believed to be where Jesus body was laid in this tomb.

This is the sign that was at the door. Indeed it's a great reminder to me that He is Risen.... Thank you Jesus for dying on the cross for me and for raising again 3 days later. Amen!!!

I'm also reminded of this song today.

Christ the Lord is Risen Today

Christ, the Lord, is risen today, Alleluia!

Sons of men and angels say, Alleluia!

Raise your joys and triumphs high, Alleluia!

Sing, ye heavens, and earth, reply, Alleluia!

Love’s redeeming work is done, Alleluia!

Fought the fight, the battle won, Alleluia!

Lo! the Sun’s eclipse is over, Alleluia!

Lo! He sets in blood no more, Alleluia!

Vain the stone, the watch, the seal, Alleluia!

Christ hath burst the gates of hell, Alleluia!

Death in vain forbids His rise, Alleluia!

Christ hath opened paradise, Alleluia!

Lives again our glorious King, Alleluia!

Where, O death, is now thy sting? Alleluia!

Once He died our souls to save, Alleluia!

Where thy victory, O grave? Alleluia!

Soar we now where Christ hath led, Alleluia!

Following our exalted Head, Alleluia!

Made like Him, like Him we rise, Alleluia!

Ours the cross, the grave, the skies, Alleluia!

Hail, the Lord of earth and Heaven, Alleluia!

Praise to Thee by both be given, Alleluia!

Thee we greet triumphant now, Alleluia!

Hail, the resurrection, thou, Alleluia!

King of glory, Soul of bliss, Alleluia!

Everlasting life is this, Alleluia!

Thee to know, Thy power to prove, Alleluia!

Thus to sing and thus to love, Alleluia!

Hymns of praise then let us sing, Alleluia!

Unto Christ, our heavenly King, Alleluia!

Who endured the cross and grave, Alleluia!

Sinners to redeem and save. Alleluia!

But the pains that He endured, Alleluia!

Our salvation have procured, Alleluia!

Now above the sky He’s King, Alleluia!

Where the angels ever sing. Alleluia!

Jesus Christ is risen today, Alleluia!

Our triumphant holy day, Alleluia!

Who did once upon the cross, Alleluia!

Suffer to redeem our loss. Alleluia!

A bag of emotions

Yesterday was Good Friday. I woke up with a bad back and I knew that I wanted to go to church no matter what. I crawled out of bed and made my way to the toilet for a shower and changed and made my way out of the house.

When I reached church, I noticed that my back did not hurt any more. I thank the Lord for it and I knew that I just wanted to get to church to spend some time with God and have fellowship with others.

After service, I went with my god parents for breakfast. They took me to Geylang Lor 1 for Prawn Noodles. Loved it. Loved especially the fellowship with god ma and god pa. I always feel very blessed when I am with them. From there, I got 2 god sisters, a god brother-in-law, a god grandma whom I call Mama, and the newest addition to the family is A. She is my new god niece. She is so cute and I love her so much. I thank the Lord daily for my extended family.

After I went to Parkway to shop for some stuff. As I was shopping, I realised that I was feeling some emotions coming along. I decided that it was the end of my shopping and I made my way home. When I reached home, I broke down. Why? I don't know... I just wanted to cry... Cry out to the Lord to heal me and grant me the peace and comfort in my heart.

Actually the truth is I know why I wanted to cry... all because of a person... a person whom I have feelings for but yet don't know if he feels the same way. Hmmmm.. Some times I ask the Lord why do I have to go through this feeling about someone? I think back and I rather enjoyed my 'single' days. Oh well, guess He thinks that I need it to wake me up and to also remind me that I am a human being and that I am a woman and I am allowed to have these feelings too.

A friend of mine told me this. "You are both adults, and it is good to let it all be in the open. If both parties are interested say so... if not get on with your lives... ." I also feel that way. Hmmmmm...... how open am I willing to get? Actually very. My friend said that I actually came right out to tell him how I really feel for him when I wrote my feelings down in a card.... *SCREAM* If this post is going to scare him away, so be it. All I can say that we are adult and we should face it up front.

Ok ok... going back to trust the Lord for He knows who and what is best for me. I can feel this way and that for a person but if he is not the Lord's chosen, it will not happen. But Lord, there were signs... I prayed for it and you gave me signs. So way the wait.... well, again me and my questions and have to trust the He knows what is best for His daughter.... ME!

I am reminded again in Matthew 5:37 "Simply let your 'Yes' be 'Yes,' and your 'No,' 'No'; anything beyond this comes from the evil one." There should not be a grey, or half half or anything. If I trust in the Lord, I trust in Him. Amen!!!

Matthew 19:13-15

Lately I have been reading Matthew and this week, this is the passage that stood out to me.

When I was reading Matthew 19:13-15, it states this "Then little children were brought to Jesus for him to place his hands on them and pray for them. But the disciples rebuked those who brought them. Jesus said, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these." When he had placed his hands on them, he went on from there."

I am reminded that Jesus wanted little children to come because He loves them and because they have the kind of attitude needed to approach God. A trusting attitude. Jesus did not mean that heaven in only for children, but that people need childlike attitudes of trust in God.

More I am reminded that I need to trust God in whatever I do. Especially in terms of relationship, marriage or single life, feelings for a particular person, my desire for my own flat to call home. Whether migrating to Australia is the way for me to go or to stay in Singapore to fulfill His work with the little children here in BKC.

Many of these things have some to my mind lately and I have left my heart unguarded by my thoughts and feelings and I know that it is not the direction that the Lord wants me to go. I know that even though I wait for this person, I know that I need to carry on with His work and do what He wants me to do. He has given me gifts that I should use for the extension of His Kingdom. So what am I waiting for?

It is time to get cracking and moving and not just waiting. Waiting will get me no where!!! Now I can only say to trust that the Lord knows what is best for His child. He knows who is best for me and who will make a difference in my life to be able to guide me in times when I am down and troubled or when I am going through struggles and trials. Only God knows. I don't know. I don't have the answer. So Lord show me is all that I ask.

What you mean to me!!

15 August 2005, is a day that I will never forget. Why you must be wondering. It’s simply because, on that day I lost my best friend, my mentor, my sister but most of all my mother.

My mother was a person who can never be replaced. She made many sacrifices in her life for me and she would even lay down her life for me.

Mum was a giver in all expects of her life. She gave up her happiness for me. She gave up her time for me. If you ask me to sit down and write down all the things she has given more, there would be no end to it.

Mum made me who I am today and I thank her and love her for it. She made me into a person who has a kind and loving heart that represented who she was. I would never hear a harsh word coming from her and she would always end up a quarrel with “You know I still love you for who you are.” She made me into a powerful and passionate woman that represented the life that she lead and did not give up even when the going got tough. She made me into the cheerful and giving person she was because to her, being able to support people either financially or physically and making their day is something that she was proud off. She made me into a humble and beautiful person I am today because she was always reminding me that people cannot tolerate a person who is proud and arrogant. These are just some of the qualities and characters mum had imparted to me and I thank her for that.

If you ask me how much do I love my mother, it would not be measurable. I would not be able to describe to you everything that I love about her. However, there is something that I want to write in this article and let you know about her.

1 month before my mother returned to our Lord and Maker, she called me into her room and as I was sitting and talking to her, she told me this. She said “Today let me tell you something darling, I will be returning to our Marker soon. But I want you to promise me one thing. I want you to promise me that on the day that I die, you don’t cry your heart out. I know that you are going to miss me but I want you to be strong.” Then she continued to say this to me “Today you can cry all you want in-front of me and I will be here to console you. But when I am gone and you cry, I cannot do anything for you anymore. Let me console you one last time.” Given that situation, I sat there and cried and talked to mum for about 3 hours or more. From that day onwards, mum’s health deteriorated until the day she return to Heaven.

On the morning when mum returned to the Lord, I cried. But they were tears of joy as mum did not have to suffer any longer. She did not have to struggle to breath and feel the pain of her other organs shutting down. It was indeed very painful to see her trying to take a deep breadth.

As I am writing this, tears feel my eyes and I remember as if it was yesterday that I was sitting at the edge of mum’s bed and talking to her.

Thank you mum for who you are and who you have made me to be. Thank you for allowing me to explore my life and gave me the opportunity to learn and try out new things. Thank you for guiding me in the right path and allowing me to give with all my heart and with no strings attached. Thank you for the love you have given me that I can give to others. But most of all, thank you mum for being a mum to me.

Guard Your Heart!!!

The other evening, I wrote this article about guarding your heart. I pray that it would speak to you as it did to me when I was writing it.

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Why is it so important to ‘Guard Your Heart’? - Written by Sharon Rodrigues

In Proverbs 4:23, it says “Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.”

Have you ever wondered what it means to “Guard your heart”. When you go wondering and start asking yourself about this that and another, guess what is wondering? Not only your mind but your heart also.

Biblically speaking, the heart is the seat of emotion and belief. Honestly, it is our convictions about ourselves and the world which drives us to act in certain ways, some of which are good, and most of which are bad. We all know that our heart is filled with all sorts of rubbish to start off with. That is why most of the time we get hurt.

Most of the time we don’t associate ‘guarding your heart’ with confession of sins. In actual fact, I would say that part of guarding our heart means not only confession of sins, examination of our heart, and also a careful inspection of what we let in and out of our heart and our mind. This would include things like where we go, who our friends are, what show or movie we watch, what we listen to and many more things. But in actual truth we all know that knowing the truth is what will set us from the deceitfulness of our own hearts. John 8:32 states clearly that “Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”

From Mathew Henry’s Bible Commentary, it states that “we must keep a watchful eye and a strict hand upon all the motions of our inward man. It is our great duty to keep our heart with all diligence. God, who gave us these souls, gave us a strict charge with them. Man, woman, keep thy heart; take heed to thy spirit, Deuteronomy 4:9. We need to maintain a holy jealousy of ourselves, and set a strict guard, accordingly, upon all the avenues of the soul; we need to keep our hearts from doing hurt and getting hurt, from being defiled by sin and disturbed by trouble.”

Most importantly, we need to keep our body, the temple of the Holy Spirit clean as according to 1 Corinthians 6:19 – 20, It states that “Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body.” Our body is indeed not our own. We have been bought at a price and that price was God giving His only begotten Son, Jesus Christ, to die on the cross for you and me.

I so believe that we need to keep our hearts with more care and concern than we keep any other price possession. As according to Mathew Henry’s Commentary, it states that “A good reason given for this care, because out of it are the issues of life. Out of a heart well kept will flow living issues, good products, to the glory of God and the edification of others. In general, all actions of the life flow from the heart, and therefore keeping that is making the tree good and healing the springs. Our lives will be regular or irregular, comfortable or uncomfortable, according as our hearts are kept or neglected.”

What we do, think, say and feel is important. As from there, others would be able to feel and know what your heart desires. So when people say “Your heart does not lie” is it the truth or is there some untruth in that phrase?

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Be encouraged....

My godchildren

On Saturday, I went to see my godchildren and each time I look at them, they've changed and they are so much funnier and cuter now.... This is me and Noelle. Her father was suppose to put her to bed but she did not sleep. So instead she was up and was playing with god ma.

See my goddaughter got in this position because I was in this position too hahaha.... I was reading to her and was sitting opposite her. The godmother and goddaughter sitting position. hahahaha

Than finally Ethan woke up... I was so happy to see them both. Look they posing for me to take their picture. At times I wonder why do I have godchildren and not children of my own.... hmmmm.... questions I can ask but I only know that God has the answer. As for now... I have to wait for His answer.

And finally they got to having dinner. The children were eating and the adults we watching or feeding them... or like me taking their picture and video of them. They are so funny. Do you know that Ethan can do stunts with his "tutut" You want to find out more... go view the video on my facebook. It's so hilarious...


When I was younger, I always wondered what it was to have siblings and have at the same time... have their children be my godchildren. Honestly, no need for that. I got 2 wonderful godchildren because i wanted to make a difference in their lives and for them to live a life fearing the Lord and trusting him to know what is best for them. I also got a god niece. Tell you more in my other posts.

I can only pray that the Lord will use me as his instrument to be a blessing and a guardian to these children. It is indeed a huge responsibility but Lord I know that given your blessings and strength and power, I will be able to do what I need to.